MY journey of life

As a boy growing up in a family of musicians, the elementary questions of life occupied me very early on.

Personally shaped by a childhood in show business, surrounded by people who lived off the applause of people pursuing their dreams of fame and success, I personally felt inner emptiness, hopelessness and also a lack of purpose for a long time. I was completely disoriented and had no idea what had led me to this planet. You can speak of a developmental trauma that began when I was placed in a foster family after I was born. I felt like a burden, hated myself and was convinced that I was powerless, helpless, incapable and had no chance. Without realizing it, as an adult I lived in a desperate, painful struggle for love and security. I searched for any concepts or sources that would give me what I believed I didn't deserve.

The result was a journey of burning desire for answers to the questions of my existence and life. My full attention was focused on solving problems. Because I only saw one thing above all else: problems. Myself as well.

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By then, I had already received some answers to my inner questions. Most people would define them as spiritual experiences. For me, they were the first hoped-for insights into the meaning of life, the world and what people call the word “God”.

With the collapse of the World Trade Center in 2001, the media landscape changed radically - my previously successful career also collapsed completely. During and after this change, I personally lost everything I had known as solid and secure. My entire little world and with it my finances, relationships, my apartment and everything that I had previously considered stable.

My life ended up in a garage. I really lost everything.

ƒ >> For me, this brought about an extreme existential crisis. And at first it really was just a black box full of suffering. It was an emotional disaster of frustration, anger and sadness in the waves of life. It seemed to be against me. During this time, my deepest beliefs about myself, others and life came under scrutiny. More for survival than real excitement, I eventually turned to the then new disciplines of digital media work. I expanded my avoidance expertise with a degree in media economics. Mostly, however, I was tirelessly preoccupied with the most fundamental questions of life. I had experienced several times how fragile life was. I was looking for deeper answers, for self-knowledge, inner fulfillment, stability, regardless of external circumstances. I took an intensive inventory of my own inner world, my previous thinking, feeling and consciousness.

The willingness and openness forced by pain led me to many disciplines of modern science, art, philosophy as well as traditional and modern spirituality. A deeper understanding of human nature, my own self-image and the core of my being brought light into the darkness. It was now possible to see what I had previously feared and refused to see. And many misconceptions, self-deceptions and traumatic one-way streets began to dissolve. My growing consciousness increasingly broke its chains and gained an understanding and tangible breadth for the creative principles and possibilities of life itself. And I am still in this process today, albeit voluntarily and without resistance and therefore always with joy when I become aware of old patterns.